I think I found one of the underlining causes of my overeating today. As you know I have been taking the Alli pill for a while now and it really helps but I found I can overeat and not reap the benefits of it’s pitfall. I over ate due to a very stressful situation that happened to me.
I really don’t want to get into specifics but the underlining cause is the frustration I feel with certain people. Most of the time I can just shrug off a problem but when a certain person gets me frustrated I overeat. I really wasn’t super hungry but I needed something so I walked to Burger King and bought a fish sandwich and a side salad with ranch. I love their fish sandwich with extra tartar sauce please. It is kind of like a comfort food to me.
I thought that I would get stuffed and not able to finish because I took an Alli pill a half hour before but it didn’t stop me. I have found that if I take the Alli pill closer to the time of eating I can’t eat as much but a half hour before doesn’t effect me as much.
But anyways, this stressful situation with a certain someone caused all kinds of emotions that made me want to open a pack of hot dogs - put them on the stove - grab a loaf of bread and eat all 8 dogs without even mustard. I did actually do that one time. A boyfriend of mine didn’t come to pick me up from my job after work like he promised. I had to walk. It was about 10 blocks and I was young so it didn’t bother me much because I was in such good shape but by the time I got home I was mad. He was sleeping. He didn’t pick me up because he was sleeping so I opened a pack of hot dogs and did just that - ate them all. Right there in front of him - standing next to the stove as he sat there at the kitchen table apologizing.
That same kind of frustration came over me today. And it did carry over into the day. I have practically eaten a whole box of macaroni and shells by myself tonight and I had 2 hot dogs earlier. Hot dogs and frustration go together. Even after everything I ate I still don’t feel satisfied. It is like I am looking for something to satisfy a craving.
I am not sure how to handle the frustration other than going for a walk or going to gym and punching a bag. I wasn’t able to do either because I have to work and when I got home I just didn’t feel like it. Frustration and Food go hand in hand. I don’t eat when I get upset or in a crisis situation or even get depressed like some people do. Frustration is the F word that causes all kinds of trouble for me.
P.S. I just finished off the last of the shells and cheese.
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